This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine....

Wow. So, do you see how bad I am at posting anything to a blog? My posts are almost non existant. Good thing I don't have peeps waiting to read something brilliant or funny on here like so many other bloggers do. :) So the last couple of months have been....eh. My marriage is falling apart, my gallbladder is giving me problems, my son is behind in his homeschooling and my puppy just died. BUT, aside from all of those sad miserable things.....GOD is good and is still in control and everything will be A-okay. That's the awesome thing about being a born again, washed in the blood Christian. Jesus has my back. So now on to the positive things...Spring is almost here, which means our garden will get started, Easter, Chickens, and our new puppy. I'm sure there are other good positive things to mention, but these are the things that my Littles are the most excited about. (forgive me if my sentences and paragraphs run together or if I ramble. I assume no one is reading this but me. Just putting thoughts to paper, so to speak). Gardening should be interesting. I am extremely new to it, as in- never planted anything before in my life. It should be a good learning experience for me and for the Beans. Raising chickens is also going to be a first for us, but I think it will teach Bean #1 and Bean #2 responsibility(and we will get delicious fresh eggs out of the deal, eventually. :)). The older I get the more I wish I knew how to do so that I could teach my children at their young ages. I want to learn to sew (by hand and with a machine), I want to knit and to crocet....I just want to DO. I feel as though the last couple of years have just been spent lazing around. I've stayed in a kind of funk for some time and I believe it's time to shake it off and start living the life that Jesus expects me to live. I need to be spreading the gospel, living his word, teaching my children to live his word, and at the same time spend as much positive influencing time with them as possible so that I can "get to them" before the world does. Matthew 5:16 "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven."

That darn cat!

Oh, the life of a parent. Sleep? Do any of us know what that is? You think that once they get out of a crib, can talk in complete sentences, and learn to wipe their own bums, you would start getting to sleep through the night. That is not the case on many occassions....somewhat like our current situation. My 3 (almost 4) year old has run low grade fever all day long. What's wrong with her....the flu? (God, I hope not), ear infection? (ouchie), what? No symptoms, not sure. So, being the concerened (overly so) parent that I am, I sit up for a little while after she goes to sleep to keep watch over her. I finally fall into a somewhat fitful sleep and am woken up numerous times from her mumbling in her sleep. Bad dreams. Sad face. No one likes for their babies to have nightmares or night terrors or such. I pat her arm, rub her face, whisper in her ear, "mama's here sugar, you're okay.", try and reassure her so that maybe she'll get back to peaceful dreaming. I doze back off for a short time and again am woke up by her mumbling and tossing and turning. Another bad dream? No. That would be the sound of her wheezing. The fever culprit? Croup. Yuck. The reason for this viral upper respiratory issue....allergies. More specific...the cat. Little Miss Jelly Bean, (nickname, I swear), has pretty bad allergies. When all of the components are JUST right, she ends up with croup. Very common in children with allergies. 4 days ago my parents took in my brothers cat while he is on TDY in Turkey. 2 days ago we figured out that not only is my 10 (almost 11) year old son, Butter Bean, (also a nickname, scouts honor), allergic to cats (mildly) but my beautiful allergy ridden daughter (regular allergies, as in pollen, molds, grasses....not wheat, milk, berries or whatever) is also SEVERLY allergic to the cat. Sigh. Of course. Why would it be any other way?! So now at 6:04 a.m. I sit here listening to Jelly's raspy breathing, waiting to get dressed so I can carry her to the doctor. Who has two thumbs and just wants to go back to sleep? This guy right here! Who has a blog that nobody will ever read and has to stay awake and get her baby girl all fixed up and feeling better instead? Also this guy right here. Oh, the life of a parent....

Hello!

Hello! Welcome to Life with the Beans. I've had 2 blogs prior to this, and after a few months of sporadic posting and feeling that I have nothing interesting to say, I've deleted them. I didn't feel like I had anything "important" to say and that it was just a waste of blog space. But you know what, who cares! :) I'm starting this new blog for me. This gives me somewhere to rant, rave, brag, ramble, preach and share whatever I want, whenever I want. Am I an amazing writer that has vast amounts of knowledge to bestow upon the world? No. Do I always make sense? Um, negative. Am I witty and engaging? Probably not. But here we go anyway.....